It wasn't exactly planned, but I'd been open to the possibility of seeing the sunrise today.
It's the spring equinox. Half day half night. A turning point in the year.
The start of spring.
The sun hadn't risen when I woke but the sky was light.
The moon was big and bright and on its way to set in the west.
I got up and dressed and went for a sunrise swim.
Equinoxes only come twice a year. They're special.
I hadn't expected this morning to be as beautiful and clear as it was.
There was frost on a bench and I could see my breath in the air.
A swan hissed and circled me as I got in, then lost interest.
As I swam through the cold water, I thought, What if this is the start of a new year, instead of January 1st?
And what does a new year mean?
New leaf. Clean slate. Another chance.
Couldn't we all do with another chance?
I make mistakes every day.
I try SO hard to be perfect. But every day I make mistakes.
This morning I forgave myself for my mistakes. And I let myself start again. Fresh.
These moments in the year are such good opportunities.
I wonder what would happen if I let myself start fresh every single day. Even if it wasn't an equinox.
What if I forgave myself anyway?
When I closed my eyes and imagined it, I felt warm and smiled.
So maybe there's something in it...
Happy equinox to you all.
Wishing you spring time fresh start love, no matter how many mistakes you've made,
Ruth Nadia x