I was told I wouldn't make it back to my job that year and that I'd never quite be back to how I was before - there'd always be some small damage to my brain.
I was pretty tired for the next year or so. And pretty gutted.
But with a mixture of time and alternating between going slowly and totally overdoing it, I'm back on form.
Anniversaries can be weird, they don't always make me feel the way I expect. They regularly surprise me by bringing up FEELINGS. I don't know why I'm so surprised since it happens at most anniversaries.
This year I wanted to CELEBRATE - to do something different. I wanted to push my body because I CAN now. I CAN be physical. And I love being physical.
So I took myself out for a date. I had an
adventure day with hill climbing, beck swimming and joyful dancing.
The me from 5 years ago wouldn't have believed that days like today were coming.
Yay being alive! Yay having a body and energy to move it!
I love my amazing body and I'm so glad I didn't die.
I hoped to share this day with other people but it didn't work out that way and I've actually had the BEST time on my own.
So that was another surprise.
However you are today and wherever you are, I send massive love to you. Come and see me for a massage, I love bodies, they're great. Let's give them all the love while we've got them,
Ruth Nadia x